I'm just speaking my reality. I'm not attacking anyone, I don't see your point at all

What?

More than that. Being dead will save me from pain, but unfortunately dying is painful. And I can't handle that. I wish I could have lots of money to kick my problems away and buy me company, maybe a wife.

Dude my mother basically hates me by now.

You're a nice human being. But I'm sorry reading never did ANYTHING for me. I don't read anymore, I would trade being more ignorant over getting some of satisfaction in my life.

I've done most of what you asked and failed at it. I got rid of my guitar and I don't plan to touch it ever again, it depresses me trying to play. And bores me most of the time. I had a shit warehouse job were I was abused. I can't get any calls for a job anymore and I don't live where you live so no, the government of this city won't help me to get a job.

And I'm a bad person, I don't wanna help anyone, I'm tired of being used or feeling that I'm doing something for someone without getting paid.

I quit the gym already long ago, it depresses me and I'm broke

Not from America

I'm afraid of drugs, I don't even smoke. Plus is illegal in this country

I don't have money, live with my mother. I can't move anywhere.

Yet majority of YouTubers doing those reactions are literally doing that. Not only that, some of them put them in the title or in the opening, as a badge

Fucking terrible. It's been almost a year since I don't have a job and nobody calls back after the interviews or exams. I've seen people in other countries complaining about how draining their new Amazon warehouse is... Give me that job! It feels like nobody wants me