This is me and my husband. I find the part about going through the pandemic together especially true. “After” the pandemic I never went back to the office and the number of coworkers I had who seemed to be flabbergasted that I wanted to stay at home was through the roof. They seemed genuinely confused that husband and I weren't dying to get away from each other.
I have to admit though, it may have become somewhat of a hostile work environment as my husband has been threatening to tell my boss about all the times I make fish for lunch.
Absolutely. There's no better feeling than knowing someone will always be there for you and have your best interests in mind. Cuddles and stupid jokes aren't bad either, if you're into that sort of thing.
Even in past relationships that didn't work out, I wouldn't say the time/money/energy was wasted either. I don't regret any of it, even if it was only to find out what didn't work for me and what I didn't want in the future.
I know you're trying to come to terms with being alone, but I truly believe love is worth fighting for, if you decide you want that. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.