Maybe in what they are saying is a kernel of a truth

sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I made a bunch of assumptions and I have really strong desire to help people, so I have made a mistake.

I’ve personally studied this personal issue for my entire fucking life

I would also be outraged if some armchair expert or worse an actual expert spew lies towards me and my situation. Even if I can't offer a solution at least I can be emphatic towards your suffering and your struggle.

I can't really offer you much other than virtual hug or a prayer to a higher power for a better tomorrow. Take care of yourself as it seems that no one else will.

Why do people always assume I haven’t?

I assumed that you have some sort of nerve pain like your friend and it would be unbearable.

Digestive issues are textbook examples of psychosomatic problems so I am less surprised that they didn't help you. Maybe in what they are saying is a kernel of a truth but that's not for me to judge as I have my own life to live and you have yours.

I have high hopes that therapy will help you.

Yeah, you do know what you’re talking about when you say “I am totally clueless”. No offense, but spot on.

I am basically Socrates. And now I don't know what to do with that lack of knowledge. Maybe I should build a time machine and stroll around in an ancient Greece or study philosophy with my inflated ego. /j

I've since not been listened to at all,

Yeah, that sucks.

I have read some years ago tips for women on reddit how to deal with misygonic docs that don't take problems seriously. The gist of it was to present a story with your appearence that will help the doc emphatize with you (as I remember that was to present themselfs as business woman where illness prevents them from working.)

I guess something similar could be used for drug user that somehow is intepreted as addict.

I am uninformed but I heard from psychiatrist that weed has some negative effects on mental illness.

I would consider stopping weed for a bit, ride on painkillers(? I am totally clueless) for that time and try to get prescription for weed if it's possible (wikipedia says that it's legal for medical use.)

tossed out of an ER

I can relate. That was horrible experience for me and only by intervention of my best friend I am still here.

finally did manage to get a therapist, […] So that's one positive thing

This is HUGE sucess. Congrats! And stick with it for at least couple of months.

Your mind is playing tricks on you where you toss out a possible solutions outright due to buried emotions.

There are a lot of different types of reaources and some work and some don't.

Different types of Therapy (CBT, EMDR, etc.), group therapy, books and lectures, long hikes, pilgrimages, d&d, meditation, Alcoholics Anonymous, hitting the gym, temp work agency and even more esoteric ones that I don't reccomend without trying more normal ones. They all are tools that may not work for you but there exists the tool that will work. The difficulty is in finding one that somewhat works and not giving up half way.

Do you want to change? Do you wish you wanted to change?

Monster flower ✅
Apple ✅
Spaceship ✅
Virus ✅
Soulmates ✅

Reading japanese, living life. Hopefuly I want to be better at overcoming my trauma but that outcome is kinda independed of my actions towards that.

I would do it only if I was organizing the IRL community on the internet that I have direct involvement in.

If there would be new IRL community that need a digital space, (theoritically) I would go around and talk to the lead (or be the lead) and crete a space for the people to use.

Pretty good. I always dread making textures/materials and yet another project sits untouched for weeks. (Any tips welcome)

REST API docs

Your consumer can query the API on its own, and download 5 subtitles per IP's per 24 hours, but a user must be authenticated to download more. Users will then be able to download as many subtitles as their ranks allows, from 10 as simple signed up user, to 1000 for VIP user.

I think it's reasonable move. They have Legacy API that cost them a lot of manhours to maitain and they decided to cut on costs and replace it with a new thing. Sadly they decresed amount of api calls from 20 to 5 [needs citation]

I think they don't have good PR guy to better communicate the change

I would say just subscribe to stuff you like and don't doom scroll for hours. A 15 min session is all you need to catch up for a day in your interests. Also make some posts in stuff you like and care about.

The tags are currently worked on, if you want to say something to make a change, write there.

https://github.com/Neshura87/Lemmy-RFC

Github issue that started the tags conversation. https://github.com/LemmyNet/lemmy/issues/317